Taking a cue from Leanne, I realize that I, too, am too often negative or sarcastic about the goings on down here (i.e. the path that God has currently brought us to). I really do want to develop a thankful heart and project a thankful attitude to those around me.
To me, it really doesn't count to say that I'm content when I'm getting the things that I want - how do I know that I'm content if life is as I think that it should be?
With that said, here is my list for right now. I would like to do this periodically - more for myself - to see it in writing, than for anything else.
1. ...for my godly husband. What a blessing to know that I can trust and respect his judgement - even when he tells me what I need to hear - not just what I want to hear.
2. ...for Mark having a job that he enjoys and not having to have taken a temporary, one-year position like most people in his position. Meaning - we would have just finished moving again - to who knows where.
3. ...for living in an area where housing cost are reasonable - so that I don't have to work full time if I don't want to (which I am not). If he had had to accept one of those one year positions in Indy or Atlanta - I really would not have had an option, not only because of housing costs, but because one-year positions don't pay much.
4. ...for being able to connect with friends and family. Those relationships so often energize me, how blessed Mark and I have been!
5. ...for the job that I do have. Yes, I would rather be working in town and not commuting, yes, I would like to be making more money. But, I actually do like the work that I do.
6. ...for the relationships that we have made/are making down here.
7. ...for our little Matthew, I love feeling him move around inside of me. I'm so glad that Mark can feel him move, now, too.
8. ...for our new central air conditioner!!
Friday, August 17, 2007
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
McD's vs. BK
It is my humble opinion that I think that, although the Mocha Joe Iced Coffees from Burger King are good, the large Iced Coffee from McDonald's is a better deal.
Thursday, August 9, 2007
A year here
Wow, it's hard to believe that this week mark's our first year in Arkansas.
So many new experiences, so much has changed in our lives. I wish that I could say that it was been a wonderful experience, that we've found "our place", that this is where I want to be for the rest of my life.
I came into this knowing that it would be hard - not really knowing anyone, small town, different culture, etc.... I wasn't dreading it, I just knew that it would be hard - not in a pessemistic way either.
Well, I confess, it has been a really difficult year for me, particularly the last half. You know, the first six months are basically survival months, trying to figure out where everything is and how things work down here, lots of adventures. After those first six months, reality sinks in - "this is it?"
Compounded with the miscarriage, I was an angry person and God knew it. I felt like was on the verge of drowning in a sea of anger and bitterness - trust me when I say that I was pleading with God to change my heart - I don't ever want to be a bitter and angry person. And I know that my "problem" was with God and no one else.
I also know that in times like those, often it's learning to wait on God, work diligently on Pil 4:8 thinking and make myself - with the grace of the Holy Spirit - think about all of the things that I do have to be thankful for.
So, now I am happy to say that life is better than it was - in my attitude. I still have a long way to go toward saying that I am truly content - and I do want that - but, I know that God is faithfully working in my heart - despite my faithlessness to Him.
And I don't want anyone to think that I'm doing better because I'm pregnant - I don't want to come across as thinking that the pregnancy solved anything - I'm thankful that I had - by God's grace - decided before I knew that I was pregnant, that it would really be okay if I didn't get pregnant for a while.
In the end, I don't know how long God will have us here. Mark and I really do want to end up closer to our families, we know that that is in God's hands.
Monday, August 6, 2007
Nice visit
My parents came to visit last week. We had a wonderful time. They came down on Wednesday - so they were at our apt when I came back from work. We went to the infamous Burger Barn for dinner. Thursday morning, we headed up to pick Mark up at the airport - from his uneventful flight :o). We laid low the rest of the day and ad yummy vegetables from Indiana gardens for dinner. Friday afternoon, we headed down to Texarkana and had dinner at Zappata's - Mark's favorite!
I made breakfast Saturday morning and then Mom and Dad headed back be 10.
We had thought on Friday, that I had a leak in one of my tires (one of the new ones, of course). It was a fast leak, too. Upon further inspection, my detective father figured out that it was a broken valve cap - when he put it back on, you could here the air rushing out. Thankfully, that's all that it was, and 67 cents later, we have new valve caps and a full tire.
Thanks, Mom and Dad for everything we love you!!!
I made breakfast Saturday morning and then Mom and Dad headed back be 10.
We had thought on Friday, that I had a leak in one of my tires (one of the new ones, of course). It was a fast leak, too. Upon further inspection, my detective father figured out that it was a broken valve cap - when he put it back on, you could here the air rushing out. Thankfully, that's all that it was, and 67 cents later, we have new valve caps and a full tire.
Thanks, Mom and Dad for everything we love you!!!
Pregnancy notes
I had a routine OB appt today. It worked out well because I had some spotting yesterday and this AM. My doctor did a pelvic and found a big cervical polyp. He said that that was the cause of my spotting. He sent it off and I'll call on Friday to see if results are in. Most polyps are benign, and frankly - I'm not too worried.
I didn't know if vacation would "do me in" as for weight gain - I've only gained 5 pounds in total - could be worse - all of that walking in New Haven and NYC saved me from more pounds, I'm sure.
As for Matthew Terry, we listened to his heart beat on the Doppler and the doctor was pleased.
I've been feeling Matthew on the inside moving around since about the fifteenth week. Just last Thursday or Friday I put my hand on my abd and felt him move. Mark got to feel him once last night, too. That is the fun part :o)
I have a little swelling in my feet from time to time; I thought that the nausea was all gone - but it's not - it's still not as bad as what it had been so I can't complain.
My next planned appt is Sept 7 - I will be finising my 27th week, Lord willing.
I think that I'm actually looking pregnant now - that's nice.
I didn't know if vacation would "do me in" as for weight gain - I've only gained 5 pounds in total - could be worse - all of that walking in New Haven and NYC saved me from more pounds, I'm sure.
As for Matthew Terry, we listened to his heart beat on the Doppler and the doctor was pleased.
I've been feeling Matthew on the inside moving around since about the fifteenth week. Just last Thursday or Friday I put my hand on my abd and felt him move. Mark got to feel him once last night, too. That is the fun part :o)
I have a little swelling in my feet from time to time; I thought that the nausea was all gone - but it's not - it's still not as bad as what it had been so I can't complain.
My next planned appt is Sept 7 - I will be finising my 27th week, Lord willing.
I think that I'm actually looking pregnant now - that's nice.
Thursday, August 2, 2007
Wednesday, August 1, 2007
Luggage returned
Just to update - I did receive my luggage yesterday afternoon.
One little thing that I didn't mention in the previous entry......somehow, I had misplaced my driver's license in the Harrisburg airport. I was convinced that it had fallen between the inner and outside liners of the suitcase - but I couldn't get it out. That was really the low point. I realized how difficult everything would be if I this itinerary didn't work out and I had to go through the whole process again.
Thankfully, I had my boarding pass by the time my license was gone - so the ticketing agent put a note on the boarding pass and I just had to have everything searched while going through security.
I was soooooo happy to be able to unzip the inner liner of the suitcase and see the license slide out!
One little thing that I didn't mention in the previous entry......somehow, I had misplaced my driver's license in the Harrisburg airport. I was convinced that it had fallen between the inner and outside liners of the suitcase - but I couldn't get it out. That was really the low point. I realized how difficult everything would be if I this itinerary didn't work out and I had to go through the whole process again.
Thankfully, I had my boarding pass by the time my license was gone - so the ticketing agent put a note on the boarding pass and I just had to have everything searched while going through security.
I was soooooo happy to be able to unzip the inner liner of the suitcase and see the license slide out!
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